23

I always thought that I would be one of the first of my friends to get married. But as time goes on I am realizing how that probably wont happen, and I am content with that. 

I have not always been content with not marrying right away. I have always been the girl with a constant boyfriend. I held them tight around my finger until either things were moving way to fast, or I became to in love with the idea of a relationship instead of the man. I had big dreams of a grand wedding when I was still young. 23 had always been the perfect age to get married, but that year is coming on quick, and it is no longer desirable to me. 

I have been doing some growing up since the ending of my last relationship (summer 2k13). I have realized how selfish I really am. How I love to call all of the shots. How if something does not directly affect me that I did not care about it. I have realized that there is more to life than just me. That there are people out there that could do more with the opportunities life has given me. Most importantly, that I have amazing friends that are there for me, and that support me. 

I have sucked as a friend in supporting those who support me. If it was happening to me I would get insanely jealous, or tell them a story of something similar that happened to me once.  So my goal now is to support them. I want to be there for my friends like they are/were there for me.

My friends are beautiful beings and lately I feel like they have all been pairing off, and for the first time in my life I am not jealous of them, I am happy for them. I see there lives and I know that this is the time for them to fall in love. Their life plans match up perfectly with the life plans of their boyfriends. They are able to juggle both relationship and friendship, a trait I have yet to learn to do.

Although there are still three years till 23, I do not believe that I will be married. I can see most of my friends engaged or married by that point, but not me, and that is something that I am good with.

1 Peter 3:8
Finally, all of you should be of one mind. Sympathize with each other. Love each other as brothers and sisters. Be tenderhearted, and keep a humble attitude. (NLT)